Off To See RENT Tonight At The Fox Theater In St. Louis

What’s up everybody, Chris here just killing time before I hit the road to go down to St. Louis. I’m going down to see the musical RENT at the Fox Theater. I’m actually pretty stoked because the cast is made up of two of the original members from the Broadway show. What’s funny is that anybody who knew me from my Northwest days will see this as pretty out of the ordinary. Mainly due to the fact that I used to just despise musicals and all the “fine arts” performances that I attended. People would say that I’m just not cultured and stuff. In a sense, I don’t think it was that I was not cultured, but more of the fact that I had a very naive view of music in general. If it wasn’t heavy and rock, I wouldn’t bother.

A lot of time has since passed, and my musical tastes are open beyond belief. I’m still leaving room for country, that’s the only genre of music I can’t really just sit down and listen to except for Garth Brooks. All other genres of music though I can find a liking to. I remember many days going to work and listening to the RENT and WICKED soundtracks on my iPod. I think my ear just matured. I listen to so much music all the time that if you don’t cross over to others genres, then you just get bored.

So that’s the event I’m really looking forward to tonight. Sadly I could not find many others who were as enthusiastic about going to see it. Kimberlie would have gone for sure but she’s working. My sister and mom both offered to go which is always cool of them. I know Casey(my sister) used to enjoy musicals and may still. I believe she had other engagements to attend though, which is all good.

In all honesty, I may have missed going to this one because I’m mostly going to use it as an event for my sophomore portfolio class at SCCC. Don’t get me wrong though, I am actually very excited to go do something different, and especially be able to say I saw one of the great musicals. So there are mixed reasons for going tonight, all with good intentions though.

I think you have to kind of dress nice when you go down to the Fox Theater, so I think a button up shirt has my name on it. The only thing that is ruining this experience is the fact that I have to kind of keep track of different things for this paper I have to write. I don’t think I’ll get to fully enjoy the whole show. I also have to work at 5am Monday morning. That makes the show getting over at like 10:30pm more fun as it slims my amount of sleep, it’s cool though.

So that is my gig going on tonight. I’m going to be Tweeting during the whole thing, so keep an eye on that. Actually, I may hold off to do it before the show, intermission and afterwards, I don’t want to be disrespectful to the production by having my cell phone out. Not really cool ya know.

So I hope everybody enjoys their Sunday evening, and I’ll post again soon.

Chris

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Good People Don’t Go To Heaven

So I was sitting atop one of my favorite places to sit….the kitchen counter, drinking a glass of milk when I came across a pamphlet on the island in the middle of the kitchen. It was from the church service my Mom had gone to this last Sunday. The title of it was “White Lies: Good People Go To Heaven.” I was interested in the piece of literature so I opened it up and began to read.

When I DID believe in the whole Jesus and religion shenanigans, I always believed, you don’t have to go to church every sunday and stuff to get in to heaven. Just live a good life, treat people kindly, don’t do terrible things and you’d be good.

Wow I was apparently destined to fail in a sense, and for sure am destined to “Hell” now. Here’s what I discovered. In this church pamphlet it said that you don’t get into heaven by being a good person, you get into heaven for believing, THAT’S IT. You must believe in God to get into heaven.

So if I’m understanding this correctly, you can technically raise hell from here to Pluto and totally get a free pass into heaven as long as you believe in that white bearded bro from up above. He could give a rat’s ass what you do on earth in terms of kindness, he just wants you to buy into his product. He kind of has that same sounding personality as any other douchebag CEO of any company selling things. We will be totally cool with you if you buy our products. Don’t “buy into our “product” and we are going to trash the hell out of you, or in this case, not accept you into our over-bright grace-land.

So let me say this, I will take my life of kindness and treating others like humans. I will take my risk of going to Hell, because I don’t know if this whole gimmick of God is true, nobody does for that matter. I do know, if this is my ONLY shot at life, I’m going down knowing I was a human, and not some drone that is just trying to please some imaginary friend.

This blog sounds extremely hostile, and totally against church, but this thing got my engines going. Just the thought that a sermon had to be made to tell you that, BEING GOOD DOES NOT GET YOU INTO HEAVEN. Are you kidding me?

If God popped into my room right now and said, Ha see Chris I am real, I honestly could tell you, that I would not accept him and his “product” until he made some major adjustments to it. He could promise me eternal hell, whatever, I’m not going to sell my self to something that is made half-assed.

Now many can say, these feelings are made from Man and not from the Lord. Give him a chance, he will show you the real meaning of life, or whatever. How about he show me that life is not random. The fact that people believe he has a plan or controls things is beyond me. The world we live in is so far gone, that for an almighty Creator, he SUCKS at what he does.

What’s funny is that I’m even referring to “him” as if he exists. I suppose we do the same thing though with Santa Clause and the Easter Bunny as well though.

So let me wrap this up, I don’t care how divine you think your life is, or how spiritual things appear around you. You’re just as big of a dickhead as the one you follow. Beliefs like these are the things that throw a giant brick wall in front of society. When we start to realize that we need to change our mindset to evolve, then we’re going to die out as a race just like every other Cult, or outrageous follower. I’m not falling for it though.

That is all, sorry for the hostility all.

Chris

P.S. This entire entry has no direction towards those who think that when we die, we come back as small woodland creatures, cause I can totally back you on that. Squirrels can orchestrate like nobody’s business!
The Dark Side

Dredg – Pariah Lyrics, Awesome Songs/Lyrics

THE FIRST FOUR LINES IN THIS SONG MAKE ONE OF THE GREATEST POINTS I THINK I’VE EVER HEARD.

To sacrifice oneself never made sense to me
Cause life is really the only and last gift we’ve all received
Some will waste it in the name of something you can’t see
Continually defeatS the purpose of that something creating

Oh, delusions
Are meant to justify, justify the things you do
Oh, delusions
Never really qualified, qualified as an excuse

As he approached the city center with the skyline in view
There was nothing left to contemplate, he knew he must follow through
With the plan certified by faith and a plan written in death
At that moment, this was it, he took his last breath

Oh, delusions
Are meant to justify, justify the things you do
Oh, delusions
Never really qualified, qualified as an excuse

No more hiding, no more hiding, no more blame
No more fighting, no more fighting, no more pain
No more chaos, no more chaos, no more stress
And no addiction, no addiction, no more mess
No ?, ? swollen head
No more greed, no more feeding from the hand
No more writing, no more “blame it on the man”
Realize it’s your own fault

Da-da-da, do-do-da-do-da

2168 Dancing

So here we go, this is stemming from thoughts that were just flowing at work today. Sadly the motivation and drive have mellowed since then but I’m giving it my best shot here. Let’s get goin:

Okay, so I don’t know what it was today that sparked this idea. I don’t know if it was the music I was listening to, the thought of my job, or a Twitter post I had seen a little while back. Whatever the case, I just started thinking about why people put so much stress in their lives. I thought about any trials I have had recently. I have thought about things that just got me a little bothered, and the things that just really got me steamed. I began to think to myself, why do we let ourselves get so caught up in things like money, girls/boys, work our future and so on. Why is it, we will allow ourselves to focus so much of our daily lives on stress, anger, hesitation or a mix of all three. Let me first start off on my viewpoint of life in general for me.

Up until about 3 to 4 years ago, I always had that view that, if you live your life as a kind, caring and loving individual, then you will get into heaven. You don’t have to necessarily read the bible every day or go to church and praise with others. Well, in these last few years I’ve just really dove into why I, for no apparent reason, just assumed God was a given. I came to the quick conclusion, that the main reason is because daily life in America revolves around teaching the idea of God from the get go. When you’re a child, you say the pledge of allegiance. You see on television how your role models or idols thank God for giving them this reward or that reward. As I came into my own, I just began to see the true side of religion. I saw how it was more about getting a good reputation in the world, almost like a business. Religions want to be seen as the top dog. Now within that, the reason we have religion still in place, is because it is preached to kids growing up. I have a big issue with this, as I read once in a book, teaching kids to make an honest perception of God or religion, is like asking them to do the same thing about politics. They don’t have the slightest clue. So first off let me say, get the church(though this will probably never happen) out of young childrens’ lives. Let them decide about God on their own and don’t “cheat” your way into their easily influenced minds. 

Now with that said, I am a proud Atheist, something I probably wouldn’t say too long ago. I mean that in the sense that, being Atheist is kind of looked down upon. Like you’re strange for NOT BELIEVING IN GOD! Whoa, hold the carriage there Paco, you must be jacked up. I mean you don’t see all of the great things he’s doing around you, all of the miracles he works into our daily lives. This is sarcasm by the way, as the whole idea of him working in everyday life is a joke. Basically, because I could go on and on about religion and how it’s a large load of bulls*** irational thoughts, but let me just leave it that I am a Proud ATHEIST and regardless for my dislike for religion, nobody REALLY KNOWS. 

So that’s my rant on religion leading me into life in general. I feel that we are put on to this earth only one time. When life is over, you’re done. You don’t come back as a furry rabbit, nor do you ascend/descend into heaven or hell. This is IT. I don’t feel discouraged at all by this thought, because it actually has really started to motivate me.

I saw the movie the other day called “Yes Man” with Jim Carrey. He is kind of a closed up guy, who takes a new outlook on life by just saying yes to everything. Now I wouldn’t recommend this, but it did get me thinking. How many things do we miss out on life because we say no. Because we are too lazy, scared, embarrassed and so on. I am in no way taking a side of the opposite because I fall into this category whole heartedly. What the movie did make me think about, outside of the fact that you should take more chances and just live, but it made me start to think of all of the things in life that get us down. How much energy we waste on lack luster jobs, failed relationships, petty arguments or even just laziness(my largest flaw). I just think, life has so much to offer with only so much time. We need to stop wasting so much of our time just dwelling or getting down about all of these things. 

I am not making a ton of money at my current job. I have recently become single. I even more recent got into a mini feud with my ex-g/f, all is well thankfully now. What this taught me though, is that anger is such a manufactured thing. If we could just learn that the anger we feel and put forth towards other people never actually gets us anywhere. Sure it may feel good to let loose some steam, but why does it have to get to the point where you build that up. People are jacked up regardless of how you take things, why not just disregard it. Go into a mode like in the film Office Space after he is hypnotized. Just stop caring to a certain extent. I’m not saying turn into a drone and just lock up, I’m saying, let’s just try putting forth a positive attitude 24/7. No matter how crappy things may seem, they’re not that bad, and what good is worrying about those things. Those are precious moments, I feel you’re never going to get back. 

This piece of work may mean little to anybody but myself, and it may be a jumbled mess of random thoughts. To me though, I’m really tired of all the negative aspects of life. There is no reason for “stress.” Why do you have to let it get a piece of you. I’m not going to speak for anybody nor try and sum up their lives into a stress free life. I’m just saying, for myself personally, I’m tired of not living the full life I should be. I’m tired of negative things peaking in and ruining this “ONE SHOT.” There’s no reason you should not be able to enjoy every aspect of life wtihin reason. I’m not going to worry about money/relationships/grudges any of that. Now don’t take that as I’m going to stop paying bills, I’m going to blow off any friends I have and say screw them or just let people walk on me. What I’m saying is, you have one life to live. I don’t need to be rich, or even “well off.” I’m not going to care if somebody has a “better” job than me, I’m not going to compare myself to how somebody else is living their life. I’m going to live life for me, because I’m not here for anybody else. I will back my friends and family, I will provide positive environments for those who wish to be around that. I’m just not going to let petty “materialistic” worries get to me. I’m living my life to the fullest now, and I will fully admit, I was not doing so before. 

Bottom line here people, stop worrying about the future so much, live your life for the moment. The economy is tough, and who knows which direction it will turn towards. If you focus on all this money crap and whatever, then so be it. There are those out there who have it far worse then those of us who think we’re “hurt’ by this economy. I have always kind of had the outlook of, well it could be worse, and the thing is, it can always be worse, but know that somebody has always got it 10 times worse then you. Making that “bad time” not so bad after all.

So in closing, just live your life, that’s it, don’t rely on some idea that you may get into heaven after this. Rely on the fact that regardless of some God or religion, we should treat each other kindly, you don’t need some preacher to tell you this. Live for you and enjoy every moment of it. Don’t regret any decision made, because I’m sure that though you may have missed something from the past, you have enjoyed something in the present because of it. 

So that is all for me, I’m off, so have a great night, and turn things around now.

Thanks,

Chris

P.S. You’re a monster if you made it all the way to this final line, Congratulations and thanks again!

Weekend Of Nothing

So I am extremely tired, but figured I would write a little something on here before bedtime. I took a nap for a couple hours today, however I think the entire week always crashes down on me by Fridays. Results of bad sleep schedules and other naps throughout the week, make Friday’s my crash day.

Not too much happening this week. Work was a breeze as usual, but I did apply at ATT in hopes of a new job. Penneys just isn’t paying that well, and for the amount of work we do, mixed with the hours, it’s not adding up. We’ll see what happens with that as I’ll keep you all updated. The new Wolverine movie came out yesterday, I’ll probably get around to seeing it, just not opening weekend, too crowded, plus I don’t need to spend any money.

Speaking of money, I am offiicialy going to start keeping a tab of how much money I spend daily, I am hoping to start saving severely. So at the end of every day, I’m going to check out the old bank account and see what all I spent money on. My goal is to go many days without spending any money, and if even better, many weeks. Granted I will need to fill up on gas, and pay for some different bills, but as for like stuff for fun, I need to stop the spending.

I should get back in some kind of mode of working out as well. I should at least go running if not use my new roller blades I bought. Just to try and work off the belly I’m developing, not to mention eating far better than I am. Those are all goals that I have set before but have done horribly to maintain. Perhaps I’ll stick to it this time.

Well I’m crashing for the night I just wanted to post a little something something. Night all and have a great weekend.

Chris

Naive Orleans by Anberlin

THIS SONG HAS SO MUCH MEANING NOW:

Come and go now as you please
Your actions write the melodies
To those songs that we sing
And you just sing

And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you’re not around

Is this the way you want it?
Is this the way it has to be?
Sitting here beside you
When my heart’s lost in New Orleans
Dreams come clever
Hearts now severed
Difference of forever
And I am lost there

And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you’re not around
And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you’re not around
And I finally found that all

Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing
Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing
And you just sing along out loud, yea

Come and go now as you please
Your actions write the melodies
To those songs that we sing
And you just sing

And I finally found that life goes on without you
And the world still turns when you’re not around
And I finally found that life goes on without you
And the world still turns when you’re not around
And I finally found that all

Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing
Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing
And you just sing along out loud